1135pm
17th June 2008 Tuesday
Driving home, images of my uncle lying on ICU's bed keeps repeating in my mind. It didn't feels right, I could not help it to make a call to my mum to check things out since she's still in the hospital, "you called at the right time, your uncle just left us....." I couldn't speak for a few moment when I heard this. Another farewell. We all expected this isn't it? But why does this news still have such an impact on me? My mind went blank and suddenly image of my late father appears.
Back in the hospital, in the ICU unit of Sg. Buloh Hospital, my uncle's lying helplessly on the bed with his son(my cousin) inside reminding him to breath from time to time, even though his throat has already connected to the "breathing machine" or whatever you called it. His heart rate dropped tremendously to 30 heart beats per minute, then shoot up to 51 beat per minute for a little while and slowly declining again. This situation persists since morning, it looked like he's in a coma but everyone believed that his mind is conscious. All the drugs had been removed from him since morning, doctor concluded that there's nothing else we could do except for getting ready and wait for that moment to come. He has been holding on since this morning, what could have possibly held him up? A person? Almost everyone came to the hospital except for one, my grandma. No one dares to bring her here to witness the tragedy even if the fact was that my uncle is waiting for her, to see his beloved mother for one last time before he leave. He persisted, for as long as he could.
At approximately 1145pm, I was told through the phone that my uncle has finally left us. He didn't make it to see my grandma after all. I feel deeply sorry for him, for the fact that he must leave everything behind now, those things and peoples he is clinging to. Farewell, I often relate it with sunset. When the sun's going down, it's not up to anyone to decide how long it shall stay in the sky, it'll still go down at it's own pace, regardless.
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Goodbye uncle, we'll miss you here, and I know you'll miss us in heaven too.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Long-lost-blog
12.17pm Thursday
IACT College
Another hang over day, had a rough night.
In Journalism class now, looking at the lecturer my head starts to spin. It's not that he's a lousy lecturer, but I'm just a lousy student. Lol. I couldn't help it to open up my macbook, it immediately logged on to the internet through the foyer's wifi. Well, since the only way to stay awake in the class is to do something that interests you, I know it sounds like an excuse but I'm really falling asleep if I don't have my macbook with me now.
I know my last entry was ages ago, I've been wanting to do more writing after that but there were always barriers. Apology to my readers, I've seen the messages you guys left for me and I wanted to write earlier but....as I said, barriers.
I'll tell you more about what happened in the past few months in my next entry. It's ridiculous how my eyes start to hurt just by looking at the screen, I'm aging....oh my god!
A short holiday in Bangkok with Rach and friends
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A short holiday in Bangkok with Rach and friends