Sometimes I think I'm just too dense to realized that you're actually in pain. I'm not being an ignorant, but I think it's really my own problem in making effort to care for others. I fact, I can't even make effort to care for myself. Forgive me for being too confident that you will alway be fine, or rather, was it me that I have never really spend times to find out? I think I'm just being a jerk.
I always thought that I'm an intuitive person, but how did I not foreseen your feeling? I used to be so confident that we are the same kind and we share lotsa things in common, I couldn't help it to blame myself for I've never ask you "How are you feeling, babe?". All that I've done was just waiting, thinking that you'll tell me when the time is right. It was our common practice to give each other some space, wasn't it? But I guess too much space could become ignorance.
I'm sorry that I have not been a really great friend babe, and I'm so terribly sorry that I've brought him into your life causing you so much pain. I thought he could be your happiness, again I screwed it up with my very own perceptions. Was reading your blog in the class just now, it was actually my first time reading it. I feel so sorry for you, and I almost cried. Sorry that I was kinda late. Enjoy your holiday in HK and hope you'll get well soon babe. Love you always.
p/s: I'll be here if you need me.
