As what I've constantly reminding myself, that I shouldn't just dive into love without looking what's ahead of me. I know myself very well, I can, and I will become a fool when I'm seriously in love. Well, it happens again...
I cannot change who I am, I don't know how to hold back and care less for my other half, once I've determined that I want him to be the one.
Well it seems just like a routine for me-- I fell in love, I'm always be there, always try to fit in and try to understand, and then it will followed by being taking advantage of. Everyone seems the same. Despite the fact that I actually read the book "Why men love bitches?" and understand the tricks behind to capture your man's heart, I just didn't want to do it.
I hate the fact that I actually need to follow someone else opinions and steps in order to secure a relationship. I just want to be myself, be the foolish one in love. Just love me for who I am I don't want to play mind games at all...
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I've looked this time, I took it slow and give myself time to be sure. But guess what, you won't see a thing until you are with him. People says, whatever a man could do for you in the beginning, you should just take off 50% from it when you become his steady other half. Some even worst, please don't expect anything more than 30% from what he was in the beginning.
Is that the rules in relationship? That we must play some tricks and mind games to sustain what we have? Is that the way it should be? I'm confused, but I still refuse to follow the rules, at least not right now.
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Anyway, what happened to the old time boy meets girl story? Has it become a tale?
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Last Valentines Day, he said :" I Love you baby, many more to come."
This Valentines Day, he said :" So what? It's just Valentines Day."
