Another sleepless night. Got up from my bed and grab my macbook to the living room. Dawn's approaching soon, and I have lost count how many sun rise I've seen recently, almost every next day if I'm not mistaken.
Insomnia has been with me since forever, I remember mum once told me that I just didn't like to sleep since I was a baby, it makes me wonder if I'm born with it. Maybe I'm a potential vampire-to-be.
Sitting in the living room alone, waiting for the sky to change color, couldn't help to wonder what's future like, for me and for my family, and peoples that I love and care about. Life's unpredictable, and that's the fun part of it I guess.
Put on my headphone and start indulge myself in Kelly Clarkson's wonderful voice, she's incredible and I just couldn't get enough of one of her song "Be Still". Listening carefully to each and every word she sing, I'm touched. It's funny how easily I can tear, lately.
"Be still, let it go, before we lost hope, when we still touched and love wasn't so hard."-
This has somehow reminds me of how it was like, when love started to fade, and I was still holding his hand but my heart just don't feel the same. What's left to do to make it any better? I don't know, I've done all that I could, and even more than that. I'm so sure that you know about that, thanks for everything you gave me, the wonderful memories. But you can keep it with you, all your empty promises. Be still, and let it go now.
I did not forget our happy moments...
nor our christmas...
I remember every single moment we shared...
and I remember this kiss...
Yes I remember everything, so don't ask me anymore if I've forget about you, I just want to move on with my life, with the memories of us. I wish you all the bliss and happiness for your future dear, and sorry that I didn't make it for your birthday.
I did not forget our happy moments...
nor our christmas...
I remember every single moment we shared...
and I remember this kiss...