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"Who am I?"...a question that I often ask myself ever since complications started to creep into my life. Am I still the same Capricorn girl that I used to be? It's simply a sign telling me that i've finally grown up, i guess...I'm a very lazy writer, I only write when i feel like it. Pardon me for my laziness, well at least I've finally got myself up to put up a blog of my own. I'll show you snippets of my life here from now onwards. So stay tuned...

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Sunday, January 20, 2008

When Capricorn Falls In Love (I)

What would it be like, when you fall in love? Most people would just quickly dive into it and go with the flow; some would take a little longer to contemplate then join in later when they're sure of it; some would just sit back and watch. Which one are you?

For me, a 26-year-old Capricorn, I'd pretty much love to be one who just sits back and watch. Stay away from the risks - a typical Capricorn instinct. But the fact is, "what you'd love to be" and "what you really are", are two different and opposing entities, often paradoxical. Humiliating? Not yet, more humiliatingly, I can't really think and behave like a Capricorn most of the time. The Gemini in me is so egoistical and ready to take over now.

To be frank, I am very afraid to fall in love. Anyway, it's not easy for me to fall for someone and it's getting even harder now. Is it a god sign or bad sign? I wonder...

Falling in love is never a game for me, and for that, I don't give up easily. I often see couples breaking up and getting back like a routine. It looks funny to me as I can never understand the way they handle a relationship. As if the words "break-up" has become the weapon every time when arguments occur. It's not surprising to see them back together and as sweet as ever on the same night when they have actually broken up in the morning. But I guess everyone has their very own style in taking care of their relationship.

Say it and mean it. That's my principle for life. Break up means give up to me. Through experiences, I've came to learn not to mention the words "BREAK UP" unless you really mean it. Once mentioned there's no turning back. I always believe it needs both parties to give in to work things out, and to strike a balance. It will be pathetic when one constantly has the idea of giving up while the other one is always trying to give in more and more in order to patch things up. The ending is pretty obvious here and I guess I don't need to be long winded telling you what's the outcome of it.

I can become the stupidest person alive when I really fall hard for someone, and therefore, I am very afraid to do so. Just like anybody else, or rather, any other girl, "Happily-ever-after" is the most ideal thing to happen in life. But my Capricorn instinct keeps telling me not to be a fool as Happily-ever-after only happens in fairy tales. So what happened to the good old fashion kinda boy meets girl love?

Capricorn says, "Don't fall into it!"
Gemini says, "You wouldn't know if you never try...."

indulged in dreams at 12:19 PM

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